I’ve seen the “big guys” up close and personal. They breath that rare air that makes them heroes and legends. They are humble and do not see themselves as more than they are. They blush at the very concept that they are any more than any other servant of God. But those of us who catch a glimpse of their effectiveness, who “covet” their ability, who “envy” the impact of their presented studies know differently. And we don’t covet or envy - we praise God for them. But at times we wish we could be as “much” as they.
I’ve fancied myself a writer and an orator - but have realized at my best, I’m average at both. But have realized further that if I am in fact giving my best - average is fine (i.e. I’m fine being a vessel of clay in God’s house 2 Timothy 2).
See: I find myself listening to people’s issues, answering the same questions over and over, trying to motivate and encourage the local church. Putting out the local fires, praying at hospitals, going to little league ball games, delivering food to needy folks, conducting one on one studies, running errands, counseling, hearing the concerns of members, toling for some textual gold (at least bronze) for next Sunday or Wednesday’s classes and sermons (most of us will average about one lesson every two days). And ... the great expectations of vast projects sit in the windows of my mind and while I wish for “more” - the real “more” is happening all around me. And life happens, and ministry happens, and I get to live a blessed little life.
You may be tempted to at times wish for a bigger life, a larger pulpit, a greater voice of influence. But that little life you think you are living is much bigger in the mind of those you are living it before - most of all before the “eyes of Him with whom we have to do” (Hebrews 4:13). See, there’s magic in the mundane. Live on my friend, live on. Serve Him where you are with what you have, there’s magic in the mundane! Don't yawn your way through it all - live it, embrace it, there's magic in the mundane!!